2012

Woot!

Kids...

For the record before I write this post I know that I choose to have kids.... and I do not regret that.

That being said... I am exhausted!  Taking care of their every need I sometimes forget about my own.  From the moment I conceived them they have been sucking the life out of me.  I love them all very much and am proud of them all for their individual traits.

 

I need a break!!!!

 

My birthday is this Friday.  I am turning 36.  I was thinking about spending the day with the kids.  Maybe the zoo, maybe lunch, maybe a hike.  But now I am thinking, I need a day for ME!

 

So I think I want to wake up early and go for a hike.  I don't even care if its raining at this point.

 

Then this mama is heading to my therapeutic town of PDX

 

 

If you ever read this kids, I love you very much.  Mom just needs a break.  Have fun at your dads :)

 

Headache

Sometimes you can only say it with a song... 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Peace

 

Rainy Seattle

I absolutely 100% love my state. 

 

Keep thinking that it rains ALL the time....keep thinking that America!

 

 

Peace and Love

 

Beautiful Mess

I have wanted to start a blog for a while now.  I struggle with what i want my "niche" to be when it comes to blogging. 

 

 Here are my ideas:

 

1) Picture of the day ( Basically taking a photo a day and posting it based on my feelings or whatnots of the day)

 

2) Song of the day ( See above )

 

3)  A journal of sorts to go through my past struggles I.E. Marriage, Divorce, kids, coming out, therapy...etc

 

4) Letters to the ones I love..<3

 

 

 

Basically it boils down to this.  I can put them all together.  Write here and there. Shares songs and photos of the feeling of the day.  Hell I can even write letters to the ones I love... and not so much love >:)

Life isn't about always being perfect.  I will try and fail and I will learn.  And that is OK!  I mean for all know nobody but me will be reading this.  Also gives me a sense of peace to know i can leave something behind if I do ever expire before my kids or Mom or maybe one day, my partner!

 

And on that note here is a song for me.

 

Peace and Love

 

 

 

 

Early morning

I hate the dentist in the morning...

October.

Fall! Crisp mornings and fall leaves. Its amazing that my favorite season is actually the season of death. That's harsh, maybe not death but sleep. Watching the leaves change color and the sun slowly backing away makes me feel calm. Must go along with my depression. Misery loves company right? This fall will be different. Not bad habits. Hikes and outdoors and good people and time with myself. Those are my goals. This is a goal!