Wow! That had always been my thinking. Instead of actually wanting something and making a plan to get it, I just assume I can't have it. Does it stem from not feeling good enough? I don't deserve it? Cause in reality there is nothing wrong at all with wanting things. It's the action we take to get those things we want. I am responsible for all my wants. If I want a nice car, I need to work hard to be able to afford that car. If I want my kids to help clean up, I need to teach them how to clean. It's all perspective and very simple.
I heard something tonight in the meeting. To get more self esteem you have to get out of self. So true!! When I am totally focused on myself and all the wrongs that are done to me or the things I don't have I totally sink into self pity and depression.
I want a lot of things. Some things might be unrealistic, but not impossible. Nothing is impossible and I have the capacity to make these things mine. I just have to fight for them and take the reins. Stop waiting for somebody else to save me. I am my own hero. I am my own victim. I choose what one to live in.
Things happen for a reason. People come to you for a purpose. Everything has meaning and is validated.
From now on when my kids say they want something, I want to help them come up with a goal to reach that want. It may or may not work and that's ok. But to teach them they are not even worth the try? Breaking that cycle tonight!
Love and peace.
J.
